Tick tock

As the day passes by, it's another day closer to the day we'll get married. Everyday I learn new things about her. This still feels surreal. Everything is. This is what you get when you planned to not get married at all after a huge heartbreak; God showed me a way and shut me up for good. But hey God, I ain't complaining. Thank you :)

Mama's wish

All my life, mama has always been my backbone. She's always been the one who came to my rescue. I admit it, I'm a bit of mama's boy. Not that I wanted it, but she kept insisting on helping me. Like when I was small, she had my back when other kids bullied me. When this one kid threw a rock to me and it hit my head, she went after that kid and went raaaaaggee on him. Haha. Memories

Mom always said that she wanted either a nurse, or a teacher, because she knew that I need someone who has the patience to handle me, understand me, care for me, respect me. Essentially, she wanted someone who can take care of me, as well as she does, if not better.

Well mama, I found her. I found her. I finally understand what you mean by those words. I know exactly what I want now. I see my future, crystal clear. She resembles you in many different ways. She's as pretty as you, she's as funny as you, she's as comforting as you. Heck, she even sulks like you. Hahaha!

To whose arms are the most comfortable when I cried in, for the past 27 years of my life, and especially last year, I have found someone who love me as much as you do mama. And I want to spend the rest of my life with her. She's just everything that I need, and more.

Happy Mother's Day mama. Nurunnawal is my gift to you, because I have nothing more precious to share with you mama, other than this loving girl of mine. And with your blessings, I would like to start a new life with her, and she will be someone who will support me, just like you did mama.

I love you, both my favourite girls

Finally I have someone to dedicate this video to

Let's just fall in love over and over again Nawal :)

A poem for Nawal

You're not my first, my only, but you're one of a kind
I have loved before, and I will love again

We're not perfect you and I, but it is enough for me
Happiness, not sorrow, is what I can offer to thee

If you give me your heart, I have a place to keep it
Next to mine, a holy grail, where it is sacred

I'll laugh, I'll smile, I'll even cry
To break your heart or hurt you, I won't even try

I care not about your past, I only want our future
I'll miss you, I'll love you, forever, ever after..

- Aizad Fahmy, 6th April 2012

She

All my sorrows flew away, hush keep quiet hear me say, I don't ever want you to go, please stay

Turnaround

It's been one year. Exactly one year since I left. One year since I made the biggest decision in my life. Not to forget the hardest. Lots have happened since then. I was depressed, I quit my job. If not because of my new friends I made through twitter, I think I would be in a mental institute right now. I owe it to them. They are the best.

But this post is not about my depression. Not about my job. Not about my social media life. This post is about one extraordinary girl who changed everything. She turned my life around. She gave me something to look forward to. The air smells fresher. Colours are more vibrant. I constantly think about my future with her. The best thing is, she came out of no where. Unexpectedly. I used to hate her to the guts. She was so unfriendly. There were moments when I feel like punching her in the face. But God has other plans.

The first time we met, it was like a dream date from heaven. We talked and talked for hours. It felt as if I've known her my entire life. And things got more serious from there. We fell for each other, just like that. Just like a chick flick movie.

Nawal, if you're reading this, hear me out. You're the single most unbelievable thing I went through my whole life. I've fallen in love with you. I've fallen so hard, without knowing how, without a reason. You taught me how beautiful love is. I've never experienced this before. This feels alien to me, but yet, so familiar.

"I care not about your past, I only want our future

I'll miss you, I'll love you forever ever after"

I love you Nawal